I feel like I can't! I know that I've just said that "I'm now".... but I'm not! Even tought I'm going to a university just in 2008, I can't, I just can't stop research academics programs, even financial aid I 've been looking!

And I miss Pearson soooo much! I miss be there! I know that this would be just another boring monday sitting in the loft doing some research or math homework or anything else like this..... but liking or not, it's mine routine. And I am such a sistematic person,.... I like to have time and a calendar always around!!

I don't know.... right now I feel completely in the thing that I name shower syndrome. You know when you enter in the shower and if you put the tap a little bit to the left is too hot, and a little bit to the right too cold???And nothing seens to please you? Anything is good for you! The romantists would call this blase! I feel like this.... inside a shower with water and the temperatures just dont please me....

New year was strange... really strange! The house itself was strange enough! A strange construction, with thousands of angles..... Feng shui says that angles are not good! Than the orange carpet! Dirty, old... and ORANGE....welll whatever! Wich crazy with their own manias. Oh yeh... and the people! I felt like lots of randle people togheter, people that didn't even know who was who! And people who just were togheter because of the simple fact of being brazilian!!

The mean dish was kind of scary, green! Wich dosent mean that was bad, far from that, but it was green.., And the husband was such a strange guy.... a kind of snobe friendly guy.... if that actually exists.

Anyway, I think these randon thoughs were enough for today.....

I feel like I can't! I know that I've just said that "I'm now".... but I'm not! Even tought I'm going to a university just in 2008, I can't, I just can't stop research academics programs, even financial aid I 've been looking!

And I miss Pearson soooo much! I miss be there! I know that this would be just another boring monday sitting in the loft doing some research or math homework or anything else like this..... but liking or not, it's mine routine. And I am such a sistematic person,.... I like to have time and a calendar always around!!

I don't know.... right now I feel completely in the thing that I name shower syndrome. You know when you enter in the shower and if you put the tap a little bit to the left is too hot, and a little bit to the right too cold???And nothing seens to please you? Anything is good for you! The romantists would call this blase! I feel like this.... inside a shower with water and the temperatures just dont please me....

New year was strange... really strange! The house itself was strange enough! A strange construction, with thousands of angles..... Feng shui says that angles are not good! Than the orange carpet! Dirty, old... and ORANGE....welll whatever! Wich crazy with their own manias. Oh yeh... and the people! I felt like lots of randle people togheter, people that didn't even know who was who! And people who just were togheter because of the simple fact of being brazilian!!

The mean dish was kind of scary, green! Wich dosent mean that was bad, far from that, but it was green.., And the husband was such a strange guy.... a kind of snobe friendly guy.... if that actually exists.

Anyway, I think these randon thoughs were enough for today.....

Plenitude

It's funny how life moves! Actually for me everything is funny! The world is funny, im funny, my hair is funny, and the fact that my earphones are not fitting in my ears right now it's really funny! But life... ha ha ha.... this really want to makes me laugh!

Lets see, I'm sitting in a cough, somewhere in the middle of Vancouver Island, writing in english (that is not my first language), and thinking about how funny is life! That is hilarious....

There was a little girl, who used to think about a perfect wolrd! She wanted to be in Paris, listening La vie en rose, no... better, dancing this song in the middle of a bridge in the city of the blind lights! She was in love, and the guy would be soooo good loookinng! The little girl grow up, and sudenlly, for real, she was in the middle of Canada! tHe girls still living a complete miserable life! ( She dont even have a place to pass her reveillon). The girl sometimes thinks that she still in love with her pain-in -the-ass "best" friend who still in Brazil. The girls still thinking that she is not beautiful, except her smile, sometimes she thinks that she could turn the wolrd around with her smile! (She should do a better use of it!!! - this include brushe her theeths more). But, ugly, loser girl for the first time in her life feel happy, completely happy confident about who she is and who she want to be!! Who she want to be?? That is the better, she have no idea! But she knows that she is NOW!

You know other funny thing, the girl always always ask for the guy... a guy with books, a guitar, and beautiful! The funniest thing is that the guy actually a appear and the girls cant even look at him! Now she is sooo "full"! And she knows that just someone who is capable to shake her wolrd from the legs till the last hair will make her ....!! (She thinks now that love dosen't exist)

THe girls knows, also that is time to work, to put her hands in the ..... well I have no idea where, but she will start now! And this start now, includes, still being confident about herself!!!

Man I FEELLLLL GOOODDD!!! ===DDDDDD I dont know how much this feeling will last, but I really hope that she remebers how she feels and the effort to maintain this!